Expectations
Been busy recently. Ok.. nothing's new. i wonder how come last semester can be so stressful, it's beginning to feel like a test to me because i know that in future, we probably won't have it easy while working too.
Speaking of working, i've been actively looking for a job recently and you know those interviews they love to ask about your weaknesses and strengths? i suddenly found this weakness of mine pretty prominent in just a short span of a few weeks.. i think i sometimes expect too much from myself and too much because when i start falling short of them, it can be very disappointing and confusing.
i think i sometimes bite off more than i can chew. i want family time, friends time, time for leisure, do a good fyp, model my reactor properly in a short span of time, find a good job, think of/try out all future work possibilities and make a good decision for myself, pass interviews, do well in my other modules, give tuition to earn extra bucks etc etc... and obviously, i can't and didn't do many of them as well as i hope to. i'm too greedy for my own good sometimes.
i guess sometimes, its these failures that make me learn more about myself, make me grow and be able to cope with more stuff. i don't deny that although these few months have been one of the most stressful/disappointing times for years to come, i've learnt much more and achieved some kind of success and appreciation. it's just that... i need to acknowledge that.. sometimes, i can't have everything in life. Contentment and acceptance, is sometimes the hardest things to do.
Ending with some nice photos of the past weeks =)
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