company
for the first 4 daes of my IA, i was increasingly envious of frens who hav other IA students wif them for company. i reli wondered how i was to survive on my own... wif colleagues at least 4 years (yea tats the youngest there) bigger than me n it doesnt help that they r all guys =S
veron is rite.. mayb it takes more for me to noe guys better... like duno wat to tok to them abt. so anyway, was kinda feeling quite lonely for the past week.... i always tot i wasnt the kind of person who cannot do wifout company.. if u noe wat i mean. like i can eat alone, shop alone, study alone. but i duno y jus felt quite sad.. mayb i jus miss having someone to tok to. luckily i still got my fren for company altho hes in a diff dept.
the few daes of IA made me learn not the technical knowledge.. but more abt myself. n my flaws to b exact. i find myself not as sociable as i wld like myself to be. wan to make new frens, wan to interact n noe ple.. but it seems like i jus cant do it. mayb i'm too used to others approaching me n making frens wif me tat i duno how to approach ple le...
it doesnt help when the whole office seems so bz n i'm like the onli one wif nth to do (n no internet access) =x in fact i later learnt i came at the wrong time as they were having some problems n tats wat i am here for (as in they r a bit shorthanded)
so jus as i was to b resigned to fate again esp learning tat no ntu students r joining my dept, got a pleasant change todae =) got to eat lunch wif my colleagues outside hehe. feels nice to be able to get to noe them better. tink can join them in future too... i tink i look too ke lian eating alone so they jioed me ah hehe...
still... thats no soln to my shortcoming. wonder y i'm liddat too. maybe not used to it... maybe i reli need to learn to b more sociable...
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