overcoming weaknesses
its always hard to admit one's weaknesses n its even harder to try to overcome a weakness tats been bugging me since young... i noe deep within me that i shld, for my own benefit, learn to take a step out of my comfort zone... n to force myself to overcome my weakness instead of backing away... taking the easy way out all the time...
but sigh~ as usual, its easier said than done n i confess to the fact that i had tot of avoiding my problem so that i dun hav to face it.. but i onli noe too well tat its goin to haunt me in future even if i can get away wif it for the time being....
oki after all the mystery haha... i'm tokking abt my fear of speaking out in class here... it may sound dumb to some ple cos to some ple, its sth natural and ez... but for me, it had nv been... in fact fr sec sch, everytime i hav to tok in front of the class i feel so nervous... glad to sae tat at least i can tok in front of the class now... but to require me to speak out in class amongst ple putting up their hands fighting for a chance to tok... its hard.. reli hard...
after this long msn arguement wif xy.. i think i'm enlightened.. n convinced haha. even tho i am still unable to take a first big step and take a module tat requires me to speak out in a class of 30-40 ple... i'm glad to sae tat i'm willing to try.. try to overcome this weakness.. starting fr a module tat req less of me =)
feel so much better now =P i reli felt terrible for wanting to run away from my problem jus now.. like i always do... so glad i made up my mind to try to change for the beta hehe... thanks xy for insisting to let me hear wat i need to hear instead of wat i wan to hear *smiles*
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